Saturday, 22 August 2020

cold reading

Explorers acknowledge that they have a few personality flaws, but they're usually able to compensate for them with their ability to keep up appearances. This is because, beneath the surface, they have an incredible amount of personal potential just waiting to be tapped. They try to seek variety in their encounters and feel like a caged tiger when too many rules are forced on them.

Explorers have a tendency to be a little hard on themselves sometimes but find solace in positive encouragement. At the same time, they take pride in their independence and don't just blindly accept the opinions of others. That doesn't mean, however, that they don't have a part of them that wants (and perhaps even needs) to be liked by those around them.

As Explorers grow a little older, they develop more secrets. And though they continue to work on themselves and make progress, they sometimes look back and wonder if they've made all the right decisions in life. A few of their dreams remain achieveable in the near future, while a couple of others are a bit fanciful.

Saturday, 14 September 2013

Same old same old

Interesting how despite after so many years, the renown quote from 至尊宝 still echoes in my head.

Friday, 9 December 2011

life has taken its toll on me

my body trembles and my head hurts every time they start to scream at each other. after all these years, i thought i would be used to it by now. but no.

how i wish i can make them see what i'm seeing...

the alcohol and the attitude are the fucking problem.

call me a chicken. i dont care. i have ran away many times and buried my head deep beneath, hoping that ignorance would have the solution. it never did.

how i wish...

Wednesday, 2 February 2011

lost again

it's weird feeling i'm getting.

i dont know why i keep doing the thing i'm doing, knowing very well in mind it will bring me nothing but despair at the end.

Sunday, 16 January 2011

way ahead

last updated on 26 Feb 11

Jan - r2,1                                       haiz... not good enough
Feb - biathlon                               what a race... simply love it!
Mar - golf PC                               done!
Apr - new desktop                        laptop does the trick too
May - dive sipadan                       dive moalboal
Jun - IPPT gold                             $$
Jul - Taiwan                                  rain check. the new house took up quite far bit of time and effort
Aug - hybrid bike... or real bike?  rain check
Sep - dive komodo                       dive malapascua
Oct - learn caligraphy                   rain check
Nov - Bangkok... bagpack?           rain check
Dec - chill... NoEE chalet? o.O     rain check

Sunday, 9 January 2011

was that a test? a joke? or a mockery?

i'm standing my life on a thin sheet of ice just above the freezing lake.

this is definitely not wise... but why am i still allowing it to stand there?


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23 Jan 11
it seems that every decisions i made since the start of dec are so freaking wrong!

:(

Tuesday, 28 December 2010

december

omg... what a happening month!

Wednesday, 22 December 2010

向左 向右 向前看

我爱的人,不是我的爱人。

爱我的人,是别人的爱人。

Saturday, 4 December 2010

broken

totally.


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how does one know he is heading the right direction?

Friday, 3 December 2010

the lobby

i was there. alone.

but i had a lot of realisation, about she, her and stuff.

she was great, best ever. i dont think i can change she; i can only support she in wherever i can. i'm sorry to say this, but she is every thing i dont want to be either.

with this realisation, i took the initiative, and make up the differences with her. i have not receive her forgiveness yet, but i tried my best to dissolve the grudges between us. i hope i did.

the stuff was nvr a problem... all i need was a peace of mind. despite not being able to concentrate over the past few days, i was glad there were ripples in my life. i never like stuff.


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3 Dec 10
0800

this is puzzling... she still get why i was so damn upset the other day.