lack of everything

the lack was probably due to the unhappiness i had with myself for wasting the holiday away.

i had a lot in my agenda, but i just couldnt gather enough self-discipline to make a start. i hated this me. the semester has started...it's too late.

anyway, the most happening thing during the holidays was suppose to be a trip up the snowy mountain for snowboarding with sgp frens. but due to $$ constraints, i pulled off from the group. i ended up spending a few days in sydney, where i made few new frens, and rotted for the rest of the holiday back in the acadmey.

i didnt feel particularly sad for not being able to get out. my life have always been simple and special events are just bonuses. it wasnt too difficult to carry on with the simplicity. i hated myself more for being a procrastinator.

i dont seem to have lose much afterall, as the squadron is getting up to the snow this coming weekend. i'll then be joining some of my mates in snowboarding for a couple of days at a more affordable price. ^_^

i promise, update will be more frequent.

there is no 'I' in 'We'

am i a lousy fren? did i do sth wrong? or did i offend u in anyway?

i hate to be excluded in everything...

|efT ⊙ut

exams are over... but i'm not happy.

feeling dumped by school-work, worldcup and frens whom i thought were close.

drained...

for the past one year, my life has been about distinctions in studies and... sadly, nothing else.

there's so many things on my mind which i think should be done... but motivation hasnt been very coorporative.

issit true that 'attention span' shortens as we get older?

issit true that 'determination' is an attribute that cant co-exist with reality?

mine seems like it.

alright, i think that's too much bull-crap... i must be tired.

time to break away from my mugging.

all hope on italy

stayed up for 4 hours just to witness the defeats of both england and brazil... sadz...