fair?

i'm on the verge of breaking down every time i think about the burden that i carry. but just before tears could find their way down my cheeks, two words came to my mind: responsibility and repercussion.

things are done the way they are not bcos i like it that way. instead, i have to include the big picture together with a long time constant into the equation. the outcome may not be particularly fitting to my desire, but it warrants a less detrimental end state.

one quote i particularly like came from one of jet li's show and it has been an excellent motivation: 活着绝对不是一个人的事.

VMT

very much thanks

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none of those, if you're looking for other things

leopard spots

i'm in a really bad mood recently.

a lot of reasons behind that. academic stress is probably one of them.

at a low-stress level, i would find myself not wanting to speak much. low-stress is usually due to problems that are still within my limits. and so it really pisses me off when i find myself taking more time than required to resolve it.

high-stress level involves stuffs that are way outta my league. and when that happens, i get really eccentric and you can trust me to do unexpected things just to get that load off my head.

this is an old habit from as far as i can remember. well, it probably doesnt help with the problem, but it does help keep my sanity in check.

feat

i dont remember myself playing four different games on my PC in a month. of course, not counting freecell, solitaire, hearts and minesweeper.

within this short period of time, i have been introduced to four different engineering software which i'm expected to be competent with in the next couple of weeks.

isnt it sux to be an engineer some times.

murphy's law

problems in zimbawee and nepal with their elections, the breaking of antarctic ice, the rising food (rice) price, inflation, and of course tibet and the olympic torch relay...

this world seems so f up and it's going from bad to worst. or perhaps watching bbc news while doing my homework wasnt a good idea after all.