Friday, 15 January 2010

dead reckoning

read a book recently and it mentioned that man seek power, money and woman.

really?

with great power comes great responsibility. for the case of my job it can be a matter of life and death of the ppl i work for, i work with and who work for me. and perhaps in some instances, ppl who cross my path in any way. any screw up on my part can leave these ppl or their love ones in great agony. at the moment, my circle of influence includes close to a hundred ppl; i dont know if i'm ready to expand the circle.

a close fren once told me: to make a devil out of any man, just gave him lotsa money and time. i cant agree with him more. of course money is not everything; but without money i'm nothing. i'm comfortable with my current lifestyle and the state at which my wealth is growing i.e. naturally, so i dont think i wld actively seek to increase its rate of growth. in fact i'm actually quite fearful of being rich. i can talk to professionals and come out with foolproof plan to use it or whatsoever but truthfully, i dont know if i'm ready and mature enough to handle all these richness and act accordingly as i've planned.

women are trouble. i'm already having a hard time handling the relationship between the two women in my life. i dont think i want to be emotionally attached to a third yet.

more than six months have passed and i still cldnt get a fix on where i'm heading. if these three things that men supposedly want, do not interest me (yet?) then, what is it i want?

Sunday, 3 January 2010

loch ness monster

i must have been crazy to have agreed joining the singapore biathlon.

i remember telling myself after the ahm in 2002 that i'll never join any marathon (or even a half) again. well, technically i didnt break my word but... isnt singapore biathlon like double the challenge, especially since i was never a strong swimmer? omg... what have i got myself into?

no turning back now. the registration completed and fees paid.

now the challenge is to bring myself to train up so that i dont suffer on that day itself... especially in the swim.

1.5 km!!! 30 laps!!! stupid!!!

i dragged myself to the pool and did 10 laps today. it took almost 13 min. multiply that by 3 and give another 20% for fatigue on later laps and 20% for tidal stream... 55 min!!! my feet are really getting the cold.