my brain seems to be working very harder when i'm reading, much harder as compared to when i'm watching animes, tv series, etc. i have been doing quite a lot of reading recently (a break from procrastination?) and at the end of each day, it feels like i've just been through a day of intensive exams.
i take time off, every now and then, for a bit of rest. but still, i can feel my brain steaming on at full throttle. it is either still pondering over what i've just read or some random wild thoughts. many times, i find that the best way to really relax my brain is watch some shows, some no-brainer shows.
today's random...
it aint always easy to find something that interest me... especially when it comes to work. when i (appear to) find one, do i really like it from the bottom of my heart? or have i adapted myself to like it as a consolation (when all else fails)? or simply bcos it makes me looks cool? am i enjoying it bcos i really do, or bcos i'm good at it, or bcos i'm achieving something else from it?
maybe the ultimate qns to solve these is: what do i really want? to be honest, i dont really know.
i always choose a course based on what is best and most benefitial, not one that i am most happy with. maybe subconciously i've included the 'what-i-want' factor. but looking back, this factor seems to have hold very little importance.
enough randomness for now... time to get back to the best course.
