the music

i've this big problem in my life, which i have been trying to avoid.

i know i have to face it some how.

but i dont know how.

puppet

i seriously believe my life is being controlled by some unknown greater force. probably laughing at every misfortune that i was manipulated into.

if life is fair, why do i keep falling flat down onto the dirt track? and before i even tried to stand up and brush it off, i'm probably choked on the sand and coughing my lungs off...

what's new

a new layout - there has been a lack of interest in blogging since the year started. my poor 56k internet connection was partly to blame. and also my busy schedule with attachment, thesis and personal admin. now that i've changed the layout (sth which i wanted to do long ago, i got really sick of the dots), i hope it can shower me with more inspiration and blessing. er... i'm not sure what magic this brownish black layout can do, i'll just be crossing my fingers.

a new title - another reason for the lack of activity: i'm always holding back on what i want to put up here. should i be more personal? or perhaps technical stuffs about my studies and work? funny? or even cool factor? whatever... perhaps, the better way to go round this barrier is to be random. yes random posts of random ideas and thoughts at random times it is.

a new room - just a little update about my status in aussie: finished 3 years of trg and aca, now into my final 4th year, focusing purely on studies and thesis. moved into a new place, crowded with more freedom, time and booze. too bad there isnt much money available. isnt that sux. few years down the road when i have more money, i doubt time and freedom still want to befriend any more :(

alright that's all for now.

shit easter

shit shit shit

checked

EOY EXAM... checked
Great time in SST Trg... checked
Visit to gay bar... checked (i'm now straighter than ever b4)
Grieve over results... checked
Grad week... checked
Graduation (from mil)... checked
Hate-to-say-goodbye... checked
Fly home... checked
Say hi...

HELLO EVERYONE!!!

... checked

busy busy busy

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living

somep pl may call this arrogance.

i prefer to say i'm 知足.

i strongly believe that i can make it big, real big, if i wanted to. but the fact is i wont. i'm happy with the way things are gg at this moment...(relatively) quiet, easy and carefree. it is true i may grunt a little at some imperfections in my life every now and then. well, who doesnt. grunting actually makes life more interesting. furthermore, big-life doesnt guarantee perferction. i will be slogging like a dog. wait... no, in fact, i foresee a life less than a stray dog (maybe not one in sgp, cos it wld be put to sleep).

buddha's leg

does last-minute cramming actaully work for everyone?

i was never disciplined enough to start early and study for exam. even if i did start early, my sub-concious self will some how make sure that i finish my first round of revision just before the exam.

i had one and half day to mug for my next exam on friday. this is more than enough time for revision and practise and then maybe another round of revision. well... seems like a good plan. now, the half-day has just past, but i have yet to finish one tenth of the course. instead i watched a movie (click), went out for dinner, facebooked and now, blogging. procrastination seems second nature to me.

i dont really know if i should be proud to say this: i have never done past-year papers. yes... i do read thru them sometime, but that's mostly other ppl's work. i never really have the time to start doing it myself.

what the hell am i driving at... alright, simply put it: i'm lazy.

during every exam period, my favourite pastime is cross fingers and hoping to catch the buddha's leg in time.

i so hate myself

blood boils

i almost vomitted blood just then when i uncovered my doona and saw the vacuum cleanner lying on my bed. what the hell is wrong with these ang mohs... do they know such thing called personal hygiene.

when i first arrived in aust, i was rather uncomfortable about the idea of wearing shoes into houses, especially bedrooms. fyi, most of these places are carpeted. not just those small size rugs but big carpet that cover the whole floor like what you would find in hotel. imagaine walking onto the carpet with dirty shoes in your own home... yucks.

i have 'lived on carpet' for the past three years and all i can do to keep it clean is vacuum, even if i spill coffee... yucks x2. there is such thing called carpet cleaning service but that is only done once a year. too bad if you spill shit the day after the service. you can either wait for another 364 days or show off that you are rich.

during my times here, i have seen ppl sleep with their shoes on, and sometimes boots too! if this is not enough, there are actually ppl who lay their shoes out on their bed when cleaning the wardrobe. no... this is not a typing error, we keep our shoes in our wardrobe here.

there is more... but i'm not in the mood to say more. at the moment, my blood is boiling cos one of my neighbour decided to tuck the vacuum cleaner in my bed. he thinks this is a joke.

time out 2

some photos from the annual Floriade@Canberra... i thought it would be nice for the tired eyes...