the bloody cycle

i decided to hide the previous post... it just looked bloody ugly...

it was posted due to a sudden out-burst of frustration during the hell-week, mainly fuelled by the lack of sleep, high-intensity week and a fuckwit DO.

although the week is over, the overall work load isnt any better.

last week, i studied for tests in classes of another subject, rushed my assignments in other lectures and turned up late for a couple of lessons to settle some admin with the div staff.

this week, i have to make time to catch the work i've missed. next week, i reckon i'll be studying for tests and doing assignments in lectures again. it's a vicious cycle... o.O

oh well... there's a price to pay to remain at the top and being lazy at the same time.

i'll just have to work extra hard this week.

graffiti

i donno who Deborah is... but i know she got a link to some weirdo's page

it was good... especially after a hectic of week filled with tests and assignments... scribbling all around... releasing all the fustration that otherwise has no where to go



sorry mouse...

lacking sleep

真不知是好事还是坏事: i dozed off in only one lecture for the past 2 weeks!

An achievement? i'm pretty sure this is my best record (since JC times) in staying awake and actually listened in class.

Too stressed to sleep? 4 tests, 3 assignments and 2 presentations next week! wth... the week after aint any good too...

2 years!

hey~it has been 2 years! it was my blog's 2nd anniversary few days ago!

i'm actually kinda amaze that i managed to keep this running for so long. it started out as a simple mean to stay in contact with my best mates in singapore. i remembered how 'low-tech' it was in creswell, blogging was probably the most efficient way to stay connected.

anyway, many things have changed, especially the audience and the purpose...

i'm not so concern about staying connected as i used to be. i had been shoved aside by 'sorry, i'm busy now', many times...too many that i have lost count. i was sad then, but not anymore. i can fully understand the stress they've been through now.

i have been trying to make this more personal... not for others, but for myself. i'm not looking for an account of my daily happenings. i want sth that i can laugh at when i come back 5 years later, laughing at the good times and also the stupid moments.

been readin my past entries... kinda interesting and fascinated to see how my life have slowly changed... here are 5 of my fav entries:

Taurus Man the best 'summary' of me

10 Things I Wanna Do In Singapore missing home. i cant believe how much i missed home... and many simple stuffs that i had taken for granted.

NSTD this is probably the second best episode in my navy career, the first being the MSTD while i was in mids-wing. i dont think i would be able to enjoy such life again...

Words from the heart... one of the few evidences about my love life... which have stirred up a number of discussions, particuly among 2 ppl. still thinking about it?

Should i be happy or sad? i'm actually referring to the 'NCO 99/00 lunch at Billy Bombers'... no attendance comfirmation required... i reckon it is a one-of-a-kind crazy idea, but the response was great!

something cool~

click the eggs!

bizarre

that's my thought when i first listen to 陶喆's new album... especially his first song 忘不了...



but this song is nice.

we came second!

it's an annual winter function up in the snowy mountains. there were a whole lot of events; the one we participated in was called 'splash for cash'. the rule is simple: the best splash get the cash. see this and you'll understand better! (may have to right click and save... i'm not a guru in html...)



last year, our 'frigate' got us the second spot. this year, we had a 'submarine' and we got second again! (hmmm... why cant we get first??)

the winning contraction:



frankly speaking, i dont feel much pride in the win. simply bcos there was onli 4 teams participating this year (compared to last year where there was around 10).

also bcos i didnt bother to involve myself in the construction of the contraction. not just me. in fact, all the engineers in my division just couldnt be bothered. we needed the time for exams and that stupid design project last semester. would we have gotten the first, if the engineers decide to help out?

anyway, we get the 400 bucks for coming second and everyone is happy... at least our DO is. that should keep him away from us for a while.

the sunday wasnt that great. my main fun was on saturday where i finally learnt to snowboard! it was a great experience, but it pays to be cool... my muscles were so sore that i had to force my self out of bed the next morning. my whole body was so stiff that i could hardly move.

i picked up a $7-lesson (how cool is that!) and got all the basics to get moving within a short 2-hour session. i didnt fall as much as i had expected (probably all thanks to height and agility).

soon as i began to pick up speed and move on to steeper slope, i began to do 'somersault' and '360'.... well, uncontrallably. haha...they were hard falls, but i learnt well too.



hope to get up there soon~

lack of everything

the lack was probably due to the unhappiness i had with myself for wasting the holiday away.

i had a lot in my agenda, but i just couldnt gather enough self-discipline to make a start. i hated this me. the semester has started...it's too late.

anyway, the most happening thing during the holidays was suppose to be a trip up the snowy mountain for snowboarding with sgp frens. but due to $$ constraints, i pulled off from the group. i ended up spending a few days in sydney, where i made few new frens, and rotted for the rest of the holiday back in the acadmey.

i didnt feel particularly sad for not being able to get out. my life have always been simple and special events are just bonuses. it wasnt too difficult to carry on with the simplicity. i hated myself more for being a procrastinator.

i dont seem to have lose much afterall, as the squadron is getting up to the snow this coming weekend. i'll then be joining some of my mates in snowboarding for a couple of days at a more affordable price. ^_^

i promise, update will be more frequent.

there is no 'I' in 'We'

am i a lousy fren? did i do sth wrong? or did i offend u in anyway?

i hate to be excluded in everything...

|efT ⊙ut

exams are over... but i'm not happy.

feeling dumped by school-work, worldcup and frens whom i thought were close.