Should i be happy or sad?

Wednesday:- For the last time Mambo @ Zouk. God knows when i'll visit tat place again. It was awesome... possibly bcos we're under the spell of some minor-COOH. It's less crowded compared to the NUS hall bash last week. And finally we'd our "Summer Rain"! Thanx ppl... junrong, wenduan and my sis...

Thursday:- Dinner at some thai place @ buggis wif xl. Excellent place for dinner...cheap and yummy! But xl, u wld haf made my day, if the dinner was on u :p . Then we went for some shopping at Expo robinson sale wif jikok & JY... goodness... things are super cheap! It's still on...till 23rd.

Friday:- Unsatisfied wif the fact tat i bought nothing in a sale, i went robinson again wif my sis tis time. When we were there, we found another sale nearby, MPH book sale. haha... to ppl hu haf bought LOTR and Dan Brown's book, i'm sori... these books are selling at 10 and 5 bucks respectively at the sale!!! haha... i think i'm evil. At the end of the day. i spent like a hundred buck in both sales... ouch! another hole in the pocket.

Saturday:- Majong at my house wif junrong and boon. I'm sori... i din expect the wu ling gao shou at my place wld 'ba dao xiang zhu'... duo duo bao han. Anyway, bcos of the majong session, i was terribly late for the CI dinner @ swensen, PS, wif the new and the 'new-ex' and the 'old-ex'. Oh my god... the sec 1 cadets when i was yr 2 CI have now become CI as well... argh... where do i (we) stand now? Pls stop tat... i hate the idea of getting any older! Day ended wif a KTV session at Cha Xuan @ Outram... er... nvm.

Quishi in foto: 1%, Jikok in foto: 10%

Sunday:- NCO 99/00 lunch at Billy Bombers, Heeren. Jikok was telling me tat it might end up worst then the prev gathering in dec 04... just he and me having candle-light lunch. Woa... din expect such a good turn out! Thanx ppl! Wldn't haf such a great time without any of you! Then we had (another) KTV session at Party World, recommended by our lian jie... tis type of thing she noes best. But soon, one by one ppl left. Me too... how i wish i had stayed till the end of the KTV session... but reali sori tat i haf another important event in hand-- my fren's wedding dinner. My first friend's wedding... hee... Who's next?! Guanyi? mayb JY? Or who wanna fight wif them? i'll give u big ang bao. hmm... and when's mine?

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Not long after the dinner, i found myself strolling in the street at Orchard, alone... not for long. I din want to miss the bus home. But it was long enough for me to recollect all the happenings of the past few weeks since i was back...

I luv it! I'm serious... i simply love it... now they are lovely memories. Thanx every one who haf played a part in making it beautiful... my family... my mates and buddies from DHS, TJ and the navy... I reali loved it.

I felt kinda sad... and scared too, thinking about it... I'm not some1 who can express my feeling well and easily wif words. To me, they are sth profound, 'undescrib-able'. But i know this same feeling came to me once, the day b4 i left for Aust some few months ago. It has found it's way back to me again, tis time earlier and intensity doubled.

I haf lost it once. And knowing tat i'll b losing it again soon reali freaks me out...