Sori, What Was I Saying?

I’m kinda worried bout wat’s going to happen tis evening. There will be a cocktail party tis evening at the CO’s residence. Tat means I’ll hafta do wat I dread most—socialising...sigh... Being the only foreign trainee in the div the CO is bound to tok to me. I really donno wat to say...I can imagine myself tongue tight and blabbing nonsense...I’m afraid I will not be able to present myself well enough. =X It is fairly obvious tat I’m a recluse. I jus don like to tok to ppl I donno esp when it’s in a formal setting. Tis is me and I am happy about wat I am. sometimes I do hope tat I can become more extrovert so tat I would not have to frown over such a thing again. Is it really possible? I am kinda doubtful.