oei... this is not funny

i only slept for an hour since i got home. kept awake by sorrow.

i only fed on two pieces of bak kwa today. simply dont have the appetite to eat.

i thot an afternoon of series-chasing wld take my mind off. until smallville played this song in the background. someone up there does have a sense of humour.

and then my property agent came to my hse. why did she has to wear a blouse of that colour?

and then my mom showed me a packet of dried jasmine flower she bought this morning O.O



i tried to be fair and recount the incident again. i know she was piss drunk. she even kissed me, which i quickly and politely push away cos i really dont want to start on something both of us cant finish, at least not under that state of consciousness. she text me to say she was sorry. this is the first time she apologize. but it was under the pretext that she cldnt rmb what she did or say.

can i accept this?

i wld have. i dont mind the humble pie. but there are things i hold dear; things i fought hard to achieve; things i will die to protect. she put them in jeopardy. i really dont know how to forgive this.